Better

So, things are going a little better for Gerard and I. We've been more open to discussing things, and I think we are making some progress. At the very least, we are trying to communicate more, and make some headway. That is a good thing. I had Friday off, and we were able to do some mundane things that day, but they were without stress and things just seemed much more enjoyable for us. It was nice to not be stressed and trying to cram everything into a few hours on Saturday. I still plan on working to keep the communication open and hopefully we can improve on it more. We realized we sort of forgot about us with all the day to day work and parenting obligations we have. We are taking more time to focus on us once the kids are in bed and not just the drudgery of day to day living.

I sent an e-mail to the local elementary school about registering Alex for Kindergarten. We need to know when to do that and what to do for that to happen. Hopefully I hear in the next few days on that. We have a really busy time hitting right now, so I know we'll need the information sooner rather than later in order to plan accordingly.

I also made our dinner reservations for our Disney trip this weekend. I've never been to Disney, and I'm starting to get really excited about it. Gerard and I are going out to dinner just to two of us one night there. I'm very excited about that. We both love theme parks, so we can be big kids again.

Other than that, not much, it's cold and there's not much snow, so unfortunately our outside activities have been curtailed. Which is a bit of a bummer, since we can't use our sleds, snowshoes, or ice skates. I hope the weather moderates a little bit and/or we get some snow.... I'd like to get outside and do some of these things.

Okay, off to get dinner ready.

Hoping

I am really hoping that the little connection that was re-kindled last night between G and I continues to grow. I think we've been mis-communicating lately and while I am trying to do what I can to help, I've felt like I've been missing the mark a little (or a lot, I'm not sure how Gerard feels). Last night was wonderful and I really hope we can keep that open and work on it some more. It was definitely a step in the right direction... now we need to keep moving that way.... I really like it.

Wondering....

I truly wonder when people knowingly withhold information from someone that is really necessary to the situation, why they don't understand that it is still a form of deception that can really shake a person's foundation.

Anyone have any ideas?

RECAP

Okay, let's review my goals for last year (as I decided they are not resolutions), see how I did, and set things up for this year.

Last year my goals were as follows:

1. Be more patient with my children. I know I expect more from Alex at times because he is so advanced and I forget that he isn't even 4 yet, so I have to be more cognizant that his behaviors are age appropriate. I didn't do as well as I wanted on this one, but I did start to ready "Giving the Love that Heals: A guide for parents" to help me to become a better parent to my children. I'm learning a lot and trying to implement some of the teachings.

2. Make more time to knit. enough said. Done and hope to continue this year.

3. Continue to work on the financial goals that G and I started this past summer. So far, so good - we hope to continue with them throughout the year. Going well on this one, had some house repairs that put our accounts a little less than we wanted, but making strides.

4. Make myself more available for adult time with G - we tend to get lost in parenting and forget to spend time on us. Still need to work on this one... it is a constant process, but we are doing better than before.

5. Continue with my weight loss plan and health improvement that started last year too. I was doing pretty well with this one and we are both re-visiting it with renewed energy this year.


So, without further ado my goals for 2010:

1. Continue to improve my parenting skills for my children's sake.

2. Keep on knitting.

3. Make plans for adult time with G.

4. Keep investing for our future.

5. Develop my freelance work more (hopefully, enough to eventually do it full-time)

6. Decide on whether or not we want to grow our family more. We both waver on this one a lot.

7. Continue with my weight loss plan.

That's it in a nutshell. I've added a couple, but nothing outrageous.

Best wishes to everyone for a wonderful year! GO 2010!!!!!

Happy Holidays

Okay, just figured out how to do this from work.... it probably should be blocked, but hey, who am I to 'fess up? LOL!

Just wanted to wish everyone a wonderful, safe holiday. Please enjoy making memories and hold those that are dear to you close.

I will be spending as much time as possible with my wonderful husband and children and soaking up as much love and happiness as I can find. I wish all of you the same.

Peace.

Realizations....

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I LOVE: My family

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I SAY: things in a much more mature way than I used to.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I AM: a woman with self-worth

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I'VE LOST: much of my negativity

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I HATE: very little, it is too hard to feel that strongly in a negative way about something.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT MARRIAGE IS: a lot of work, but worth it.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT THE BEST: life is the one you are happy with.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I'LL ALWAYS BE: a little bit insecure.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT LOVE: is not always the answer.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT THE LAST TIME I CRIED: was because I was allowing myself to feel like a victim in a situation.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT, WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING: I really should have gone to bed earlier the night before.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT: I need to take a deep breath and try to relax, I'm far to stiff.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT RIGHT NOW: that Celtics basketball is going to dominate our tv for the next 7 months.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT BABIES: are the most precious beings that need to be protected and loved unconditionally.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I GET ON MYSPACE: never

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT TODAY: was pretty crummy, but I can learn from it and move on.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT TONIGHT: Ends the day and wipes the slate clean.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT TOMORROW: Will be kinda boring at work, but I still get paid to sit there and do nothing.

I'VE COME TO REALIZE THAT I REALLY WANT: for very little, I'm pretty happy.

:-)

Because I'm horrible at Facebook...

Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?! 'Have you ever kissed someone? Missed someone? Told someone you loved them? Drank alcohol?' 38 questions for the people who are a little older...Tag me when you finish.

Copy the questions here; start a new note and paste putting your answers over mine. Then tag your friends (only if you want - that's the adult thing) to see what we all have in common.

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
My Student Loans

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
The Century House

3. What do you really want to be doing right now?
Taking a Translating Call

4. How many colleges did you attend?
One.

5. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
It was clean and light, it is super hot here today.

6. What are your thoughts on gas prices?
Even though my car gets good gas mileage and I don't drive far, I'm glad they are coming back down.

7. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
I really wish G hadn't set it as we don't really need to be up.

8. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
Um... I hope I get to sleep all night and not have to get up with Katharine.

9. Do you miss being a child?
No. I definitely appreciate the innocence of childhood now though.

10. What errand/chore do you despise?
Dishes.

11. Get up early or sleep in?
Get up early. "Sleeping in" means 8 at the latest for me.

12. Have you found real love yet?
Yes, both my husband and children.

13. Favorite lunch meat?
Roasted Chicken, but I rarely eat lunch meat anyways.

14. What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart?
I never always get one thing every time....

15. Beach or lake?
Beach at a lake.

16. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
No, but some of society's rules and expectations for it are VERY outdated.

17. Sopranos or Desperate Housewives?
Neither

18.What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
None really, I expect they would just want to be a person when I had dinner with them.

19. Have you ever crashed your vehicle?
Yes, but not my current one.

20. Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
Yes, we were required to have annual training at an old job I had.

21. Ring tone?
I don't know, one of the ones on my phone that plays music.

22. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth.
In a tent, I guess.

23. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
San Francisco

23. Do you go to church?
Once in a very great while... G and I always say we should go more, but we never do.

24. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
Career.

25. How old are you?
35

26. Do you have a "go to" person?
Yes. My husband.

27. Are you where you want to be in life?
Mostly, yes.... but I am still working on it.

28. Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons?
Scooby Doo and The Wile E Coyote/Road Runner Show.

29. What about you do you think has changed the most?
My outlook on spending and managing money.

30. Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life?
No.

31. Do you believe in magic?
No.

32. Did you ever own troll dolls?
No.

33. Did you have a pager?
Nope, just a cell phone.

34. Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager?
I don't know, I didn't hang out much with friends as a teen.

35. Were you the type of kid you would want your children to hang out with?
Absolutely.

36.Who do you think impacted your life the most?
My granmother.

37. Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out for you?
Quite a few, actually.

38. Do you tell stories that start with “when I was your age..."?
I try not to, but I have on occasion. I have had a 20-something tell me that they don't understand the colloquialisms from 'older people my age' LOL